Where do I even start
My last post was 2019... Its now 2022... almost the end of 2022. The things that have happened between then and now... At that time I was in a horrible relationship. I knew it too. I just settled bc "I knew this train wreck and was used to it" BOY was I an idiot. Finally in 2021... it ended. 5 years of lies, cheating, the gut wrench every time I found something new. And the things I found out after.. How could someone do those things to a person they claim to love? Outright do those things. No mistakes, no accidents, no I'm so sorry I didn't mean it but blatant disrespect and come home and tell them they love you?! I just cant. I have healed so much since then. Yet I have so much damage left. I worry constantly that someone is lying to me. I worry that I'm not worth the effort, or that I am too much. I worry that the self worth I felt due to those actions is true. But it's not right? I can sit here and tell you all about me. I can sit here and tell yo...